Well I'm back on here. Seems like it's been forever. I went into the hospital in April with a sever mixed episode...primarily manic. I spent the next week in the ER at Desert Valley. That was the first time I had ever been there in my life and I know I never want to go there again. They don't know how to handle a psychiatric emergency at all...not even a little. They tried giving me my normal dose of Depokote to bring me down and it was completely ineffective. I told them such and they ignored me. I finally got so "high" that I lost control and blacked out. I apparently attacked a nurse which was hard for me to accept at first because I've never attacked ANYONE not even my sister! They had to sedate me and finally I got some sleep, but come 10pm the next night they didn't want to sedate me again and I was up until 3 trying to sleep with a pulse of 130 and a BP of 170/90 (which is insane considering I usually have LOW blood pressure). This time they sedated me so severely I shit myself in my sleep which was horrible and embarrassing.
After a week of this nonsense they sent me to Arrowhead Regional on a 5150. I spent a week there as well. They have a special ER ward for psych patients which was nice in some ways and not so much in others. They treated us all like we were animals. They yelled at us if we asked too many questions. They said terrible things about us right in front of our faces as if we were too crazy to understand. By the time I was ready to be transferred to the main ward I wished I had never taken myself to the ER and had just killed myself instead. I walked with my head hung low and slept all day. The main ward was much better. The food was still terrible, but the staff actually treated me like a human being. However, due to overcrowding issues they tried to send me home while I was still suicidal!
I allowed them to release me and went to the STAY. If you are 18-25 and have any kind of psychiatric disorder and no other place to go this is where you want to be. It's a 30-90 day say and they feed you GOOD. You're allowed some freedoms such as going out on passes. You see the Doctor 1-3 times a week depending on your need. The staff quickly become your family and friends. I cried when I left, but it was good to get out and get some freedom. Once you're out as long as you don't have any felonies or recent drug use they'll send you to the TAY housing which is basically like an apartment you share with 3-4 other people. It's a great program and they really help you get better. I HIGHLY recommend it. If you go there tell Miss Nancy hi for me and give her a big hug. She was like a mother to me. She's full of love and advice and even cross words when you need them. The STAY is like a big family that works together to get you well.
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