New quarter, new rut

It seems every time I start a new quarter at school I start out depressed and stressed. I finally start to feel happy, confident and successful and I feel ready to start school...and then it comes and the depression and anxiety come with it. My dreams are all nightmares. I toss and turn while I see myself in the hospital with no way to pay the bill, fighting with my ex-roommate, or generally in distress. I'm tired of nightmares, I just want to sleep peacefully at night. I want to be able to wake up feeling refreshed and not anxious and depressed. I know eventually I'll stabilize again, but I'm just so sick of swinging back and forth.

Still Sick

This cold doesn't want to leave me. I'm still waking up coughing in the middle of the night. The sore throat is gone mostly though. I just want to be done so I can get back to sleeping through the night.

Sick sick sick

I have the flu. Isn't it amazing how physical illness can effect emotional health as well? I'm all over the place emotionally...it's terrible...not to mention the coughing and sore throat and body aches.

Update

Happy New Year everyone. I'm really crossing my fingers that this one works out better for me than the last. I really feel like I lost everything last year. I've just started Depokote since the Abilify was giving me some major anxiety. There's a specific name for the type of anxiety it gave me, but I can't remember what it's called. If anyone knows anything about Depokote and has some advice for me let me know. Hey, I'm even open to suggestions about what to try next if it doesn't work since this is the third medication I've gone through in about a month. Check out my Medications page for more about that.

Anxiety

So the holidays were torture with this anxiety I've been having. I think it's the Welbutrin...online it says it can cause that. Hopefully my doctor will email me back soon and let me know =/

**Turns out it was the Abilify not the Welbutrin**

Anxious

I'm still anxious and I've taken my max of Klonopin today. I'm actually physically exhausted from just being high strung all day. I can't sit still and I can't focus on any one thing for too long. It's really unpleasant and bordering on manic....

Restless

I can't sit still, but I can't just pace all day. I just wanna get out, but the rain and the lack of a car prevent me. I'm just so irritable and restless. Maybe it's a side effect of the new meds I've been taking...(anyone know anything about Abilify?) . More likely it's because I still don't have my anxiety meds. I really would kill for the Klonopin under someone's fingernails right now. I kinda wanna sleep and make it go away, but I'm too restless and anxious to let myself. It's almost as if I'm afraid something's trying to catch up with me and I just have to keep moving or typing to keep it at bay. Even sitting here typing is driving me a little mad, but it's better than the pacing.